This is how I feel today. I am grateful because Miss Bella is having a perfectly good day. Her PEEP has made it’s way down to 8. Her FIO2 is at 65%. She has only bradied once – when the x-ray tech slide the film under her back. (poor lady!) But she bagged up eventually. Yeah, yeah, yeah! I am hoping this is the first day of an upward trend.
I feel so guilty because I am not with her today. Yesterday the hospital passed out all kinds of info on swine flu. The little one that passed away was in our unit, but not near us. So then I came home and found out that my babysitter and Lizzy were very busy vomiting every thing they had ever eaten. I spent all night taking care of Liz. Kris spent all night hugging the porcelain throne upstairs. So I stayed home today. Bella cannot get this! I (or Jason) have been with Bella every day since we meet her. I keep calling the nurse. I’m sure I’m driving her crazy, although she assures me I’m not. My fellow called me and gave me a very thorough update. He said they were shocked when I wasn’t there during rounds. (more guilt) Tomorrow starts a new rotation (May). We will be getting a new fellow. My sweet fellow told the new guy that he was getting one of the sickest kids in the ICU and he better be on his A game. He is a bit intimidated. :) He will grow to love her like the rest of us.