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Thursday, April 30, 2009

Grateful and Guilty

This is how I feel today.  I am grateful because Miss Bella is having a perfectly good day.  Her PEEP has made it’s way down to 8.  Her FIO2 is at 65%.  She has only bradied once – when the x-ray tech slide the film under her back.  (poor lady!)  But she bagged up eventually.  Yeah, yeah, yeah!  I am hoping this is the first day of an upward trend.

I feel so guilty because I am not with her today.  Yesterday the hospital passed out all kinds of info on swine flu.  The little one that passed away was in our unit, but not near us.  So then I came home and found out that my babysitter and Lizzy were very busy vomiting every thing they had ever eaten.  I spent all night taking care of Liz.  Kris spent all night hugging the porcelain throne upstairs.  So I stayed home today.  Bella cannot get this!  I (or Jason) have been with Bella every day since we meet her.  I keep calling the nurse.  I’m sure I’m driving her crazy, although she assures me I’m not.  My fellow called me and gave me a very thorough update.  He said they were shocked when I wasn’t there during rounds. (more guilt)  Tomorrow starts a new rotation (May).  We will be getting a new fellow.  My sweet fellow told the new guy that he was getting one of the sickest kids in the ICU and he better be on his A game.  He is a bit intimidated.  :)  He will grow to love her like the rest of us.

6 comments:

Lacey said...

Wow, you go tiny fighter. Thats down a lot. Don't feel quilty about leaving her, thats whats nice about the PICU is that there is always a nurse right there. You need to take care of yourself and other kids to.

Heather said...

No guilt.Best for everyone.Yourself included.Bella is in excellent hands.Rest.Stay germ free and get back to your baby as so as you are in the clear.Keep up the good work Bella.Make this an upward trend ...please???

Kristin said...

I hope everyone gets well soon! I thought it was great when I saw you'd been to the reception last night--I signed the same page as you. I can understand you missing Bella, but I'm sure you were where you were most needed yesterday. And, you got to see one of your girls on her wedding day! :)

maniamam said...

I'm so sorry you have sick ones at home. :( No guilt though... I hope everyone is on the mend soon. Wash those hands. More prayers offered up for you.
Krystal

Ann RN SMMC said...

Bella has a way of making friends with the nurses-don't worry about her! She will get plenty of love. Get your family well.

maureen said...

Ann is right Shelly. Every nurse who ever cares for Bella falls in love with her :) Take care of yourself, Jason and your other girls.